So im currently in bed late at night thinking about you,everything has changed,ive been looking at photos of you recently its mad that its been years you have been gone from us,nans just moved into her new house which is sad in a way,im so proud of her,im missing you like crazy,i wish you were alive and well,but life sucks,you didn't deserve what happened to you,i hope you're proud of me in ways, we need you here,seriously you shouldn't be gone grum,you were such a big part of me,everyone misses you and everything thinks about you all the time,all the memories of us are my head and will always be there,its so sad you wont see evie grow up shes so beautiful now and so smart shes missed out on so much,im so glad she met you though,Ethan has grown up hes doing well in school and rugby,zac has also grown up hes so different in a good way,Thomas is such a good boy hes a smart little kid,he misses you like all of us,billy is nearly 18 hes done so well for himself and hes now very mature then as for theo,Oscar and joey when they grow older they will hear loads of stories about you,we will all be talking about how funny you were and all the good times,i wish joey and Oscar met you,then there's me im 16 in two months,i shall be getting my spider tattoo which represents me being in your spider gang,im nearly finishing school aswell:) so much has happened good and bad just wish you were here to witness it,i know your in heaven watching us i will never forget about everything you still mean the world to me,i will never take back the time i looked after you when you were dying that's the best thing i ever done i just simply miss you grum i love you so much xxxxxxxxxxxx